Sunday, October 31, 2010

Tomato Toast and Orange Boxes

I once had a mental list that was a mile long of all the wonderful things I'd like to blog about. Things that make me happy, things that I ponder over, things that me and my roommates did, things that me and Bill did. You know...LIFE.

LIFE has been so busy as of late that that mile long list has been shoved to the recesses of my mind and locked in a dark corner. It appears that this part of my life will forever be a void. Bummer. This is why a journal (or in my case, a blog) is so wonderful.

I figure it will be better to move forward from here and not try to catch up on absolutely everything, but I will shoot for the little things and the current things that matter to me now.

I was looking through my pictures and stumbled upon these two pics that I took with the full intent of blogging about once long ago. So let me begin.


I love tomatoes - Garden tomatoes. And I love tomato toast for breakfast! It is one of those meals that I sincerely feel was discovered for the pure satisfaction of my stomach alone. :) I'm sad that tomato season has come and gone so quickly. Nonetheless, I'm glad it was here so that I could munch on a few of these little sandwiches of goodness.


This is the box that held all the keys to unlocking my happiness. Prior to its arrival, I lacked happiness and exuded stress. This box contained my textbooks. Okay. Really? Textbooks? Textbooks rarely lead to happiness in an  [a + b = happy] equation.

I was lazy and didn't look into buying my textbooks until a week before school started. I looked up all the prices of all the books I was required to have and it came to a total of over $600.00! I cried a little inside...I had no idea where that was going to come from. Then I remembered a website that my friend mentioned in a Facebook status. Chegg, the textbook rental store. I got all the books I needed for $200.00. That was the greatest news ever! BUT...it took two weeks to deliver.

So I went without books for the first week of school. For the first time in history, all of my classes really relied upon the textbook in order to get your work done. So I was starting off in a rather rough position and my grades were on a very fine line of good versus bad. 

The day this little orange box showed up on my bed, was the day I breathed a sigh of relief. Hooray for Chegg!

Monday, October 25, 2010

"13.1 Miles in the Dark"

Jana, my upstairs neighbor from this summer, once told me a story. It went something like this.

"Once upon a time there was a girl who hated to run. One day, the girl's sister asked her to run a marathon with her. The girl decided to give it a shot, even though she felt like she didn't have enough time to prepare. And you know what? The girl started to love running! And you know what else? She ran that marathon! And she ran more marathons after that! If this girl could learn to love running, anybody could."

I looked at Jana and realized she was giving an autobiographical account. I've always admired Jana...and felt relatively inspired.

Then Lucy looked at me across the table. "Jessica, you should do this with us."

I had never in my life considered running a marathon. But you know? This was only a half marathon that they were trying to convince me to run. 13.1 miles didn't seem nearly as daunting as 26.2 miles - although in my mind, it was still a sufficiently large number to handle on foot...

Then something clicked. It occurred to me that this wasn't an unrealistic goal. I'd have two months to prepare and a large support group to train with. I had never been into running prior to that moment, but what else was I going to do with all my free time that summer? Why not? I couldn't even think of an excuse to say no. It was instantaneous: as soon as I realized I had no excuses, I developed this secret longing to run a half marathon. I wanted to train and accomplish something big. I could do this!

So I agreed. :)

Thus, we began to train.
(Cue Eye of the Tiger music)

Lucy and Jana looked up half marathon training schedules online and we realized we were already behind if we were going to run the Mapleton Moonlight on August 27, 2010. We needed to start right away!

We had to ease ourselves into the training process. I attempted running in the morning by myself, and was fairly surprised at how easy it was to run...but I ran, and then realized I also had to run back. My lungs were burning and I could taste the blood in my throat as capillaries burst. It hurt! I got home and realized I had only been gone for twenty minutes...and I only ran 2 miles. This was not going to be as easy as I thought.

Then Lucy formed a running group! We ran in the evenings and we started small. 2 miles here, 3 miles there. There was always one big run throughout the week. Some people ran with us one night, some people ran the next. Tonight a group of 3? Oh wait, we're running with 10 this time around! We had a decent sized group set on running this half marathon with us. Some were natural runners who've all run their fair share of races. Some were like Lucy and I...okay...Lucy and I were the only beginners, but we were blessed to have people willing to stay with us and motivate us all along the way.

We became experts at breathing in through our noses, and out through our mouths. Our lungs learned to work with smaller amounts of air and our mouths began to lose the need for liquid if we breathed correctly. We ran in time to each other's feet pattering the ground. I found a breathing rhythm that worked best for me (in - 1,2,3 out -1,2,3). Sometimes we'd converse and sometimes we'd just run.

You should have seen the blister on the arch of my left foot. It was wickedly huge! But just as a scar marks your significance in a fight of some sort, my blister became my mark of hard work and worthwhile effort. I was proud of that thing -- don't judge.

Bill was willing to go running with me one morning...but I was quickly reminded that running just isn't for everyone. ;) Nonetheless, he was supportive of me when I'd go out running at night. (Dear Bill, Thanks.)

Then came the night of the milestone marker: The night of 11 miles. I had to mentally prepare myself for this one. In all honesty, I had no doubts that we wouldn't be able to make it. I just knew quitting wasn't an option when you're in that far!

It was me, Lucy, Is and his dog Porsche, and Aaron. Aaron Google-mapped a running route of 11 miles for us. We'd be running in a huge cross shape from the Logan Temple to the boundaries of Hyde Park. So we ran.

And we ran...
     And we ran...
         And we ran...

And then we missed a turn in the dark and took a detour in Hyde Park. This now meant we weren't running 11 miles. We were running more than that! But who knew how much more? We looked out into the city lights on the horizon and saw a speck that we call the temple. We ran all that way? Without stopping? Feeling good. ;)

Lucy and I pushed each other on. We were a great running pair!
Lucky for us, this monstrous run took place during the Perseid's Meteor Shower.  Me, Is, and Aaron saw a blindingly bright meteor shoot across the Southwestern sky. Oh my goodness! It was the most beautiful thing! We cheered and we laughed. Unfortunately, Lucy looked away as it passed, so we were bound and determined to keep our eyes on the sky in order to catch another glimpse of a falling star. We saw many, many more after that, but I have yet to ever encounter a shooting star quite like that one. :)

Our friends brought us water when we had but 2 miles left in our run. The drink break was wonderful, but at that point our legs were like jell-o, although we had the mentality and energy to keep pushing through! Mind had won out over matter!

And then we made it back to the Old Stilts (Lucy's place). We were exhausted, but you could just see in everyone's eyes that we had just accomplished something unbelievably great. We caught our breath and snapped a photo for the sake of memories and victory. We were absolutely victorious.

Me, Aaron, Lucy, and Is (and Porsche)

Later on, Aaron factored the detour into our mileage. We ran 11.9 miles. We decided to call it 12 for bragging rights. ;)

We had only a few weeks more until the big day. We had this thing in the bag!

Then I hit Limbo. I had to move out of dear Autumn Hills Cove and I couldn't move into Old Farm for two weeks. But I had to keep training in order to keep "in form."

So I had my mom, Jordan, and Shananaba run with me. :) Take that 5 miles!...Mom would not be running in with us in the night again any time soon. ;)

Another night, Jordan, Shananaba, and Val ran with me to Weber High and back. Val was awesome and Shanna puked in the gutter - each pushing themselves to their limits, but we rocked the streets of North Ogden.

Then Shanna was super cool and ran with me in the morning and sacrificed a lot of energy to do so. (Thanks Shanna!)

And now? Jordan runs cross-country. :) That makes me super happy.

Then came the big day. That morning, I packed my car and moved up to Old Farm. I met my new roommates Hilary and Melissa, said hello to Shanna and Michelle, and passed Taylor somewhere along the freeway as Bill and I headed down in my car to Mapleton.

Of course the weather was sketchy. Why wouldn't it be? It was raining rather hard when we went to go pick up our registration packets. I got a race number, a T-shirt that would fit my non-existent chihuahua, a bag full of coupons and goodies, and light-up gear to keep me visible as I ran the streets.

Heidi's parents were awesome and hosted us in their beautiful home. All of us had a place to sleep and a shower to use when the race was through. Heidi shuttled us up the canyon to the starting point. We were finally here and this was real life. Everything we had worked up for over the past two months, culminated here.

Jana, Jana's Mission Companion, Lucy, Is, Me, and Ryan

Ready? Set. Go -- and off we bolted at 9:15 PM. The goal was to leave at anytime, just so long as you crossed the finish line at midnight.

Ready?

I stuck with Lucy and we pushed each other like we always had. :) It felt good to run through the light drizzle of rain and through the winding roads of Hobble Creek Canyon. We had head lamps on, light-up necklaces, and glow sticks on our wrists. Jana and her old mission companion caught up to us, seeing as they left later than us, but we all stayed together for a bit. At certain mile-marker points, they had drinks for the runners and port-a-potties if you really needed them. But we stayed strong and didn't stop, we'd take our drink on the run!

Then Bill showed up on the side of the route and I ran by before truly internalizing that it was him. What a keeper he is for finding me. Aren't I lucky? Absolutely.

Lucy was starting to cave at mile 7. But I had a goal to run 10 miles straight through. I wasn't really working on cutting time, but rather I was running for the sake of distance. Jana stayed back with Lucy, but I continued on on my own. I felt bad for ditching Lucy, but this was really something I wanted to do for myself.

Then came mile 10. It was an awesome feeling to know that I had ran 10 miles straight without stopping. But now I was thoroughly and sufficiently exhausted. I alternated between walking and running for the last 3.1 miles. And then Mary, Lela, and Aaron caught up to me! These were the people I had trained with! It was fun to see them, but they continued to pass me by, I couldn't keep up with them. Heh heh.

Soon enough, the finish line was in sight. I could do this. I could push myself. I could really, truly do this. Jessica! Go! And next thing I know, I crossed the finish line at 11:53 PM! It was pretty anti-climatic seeing as I was by myself when I crossed the line, but I'm not really one for attention, so it was fine by me. :) I met up with Mary, Lela, and Aaron, and Ryan and Is (who ended up running 6 minute miles the entire way! Disgusting!) Then we went to the finish line as a group to cheer Lucy on. When she finally crossed, we high-fived...and died.

It hurt worse than anything to stop moving...so you just walked and stretched and walked. :) I drank a lot of liquid, and ate some orange slices. It was then that that feeling of success and accomplishment swept over me. Holy toledo! I did it. :) I ran a half-marathon. I can now check that spontaneous "secret longing" off my bucket list. Whop-atcha!

I found Bill and we continued to walk in circles trying to let my leg muscles relax. And he brought me flowers. :) We all got medals and more food and took pictures as a group! It was an awesome feeling knowing that we had all worked together to get to that point. I felt empowered. I felt good.

We are the champions!

But most of all, I loved the fact that this was not something I could do alone. I had people who convinced me to try, I had a group to keep me motivated, I had my family willing to train with me, I had Heavenly Father listening to the desires of my heart. I couldn't have done it without support and love. And these were two things I certainly, had.

Defining life experience - most definitely.

Need a running buddy?

Friday, October 1, 2010

Before September Ends

Oh how I miss my blog. It's incredible to me that I've gone a month without posting...and I haven't intentionally been blog-dieting. I have had every desire in the world to do so, but alas, school is what it is. And life is ever, ever, ever, so hectic.

I have so much I want to write about! But let me give you a few simple updates concerning my life.

I survived my two weeks of Limbo and have moved back up to "my" beloved Logan. I have wonderful roommates, and I cannot express my love and appreciation for them enough! Taylor and I are rooming together again and thank heavens we are. She keeps me sane and up to date with the new social world I now live in. Shananaba and Michelle are roomies and spend time singing and talking with each other and making us all smile. And I have yet to introduce you to the fantabulous Hilary and Melissa. I will have to do that in the very near future!

I got a job! And I must say that I owe a lot of that to Bill.I can't thank him enough for letting me know about it! How glad I am that he happened to be eaves dropping at the precise moment when he heard about the job opening. ;) The Friday I moved up, Bill set up an interview for me with USU Housing Facilities. And now, I am the happy custodian of the 4th and 5th floors of Valley View Towers. I have some epic tales to tell. :) My co-workers in VV Towers are excellent. It wasn't hard to slip in and get into the swing of things. Yet 20 hours a week keeps me on my toes when trying to integrate time to do school work...and life.

I ran a half marathon! But that deserves a whole post of its own.

I've started school. I've dropped two classes for the sake of my sanity and time management. I've finally managed to catch up on all my work that I couldn't do because I didn't have my textbooks the first week of school. Whew! What a relief...it only took a month to get back on track.

I've received a calling in my new Young Single Adult Ward. I'm a relief society instructor. :) Haha. I was telling Taylor that that would be the last calling in the world that I would want, and the next day, I was called into the Bishop's office and extended the calling. I came out laughing. Oh irony. I've already taught one lesson, and it wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. The Lord knows what he is doing and how best to help us grow.

Bill and I have known each other for four and a half months now. :)

What else? I'm the Public Relations Officer in my IWA Chapter (Institute Women's Association) and have the opportunity to mingle and grow closer to at least a dozen new girls this year. Our chapter decided to bloom this semester and accordingly, there are many new faces to come to recognize!

I continue to participate as a committee member of the marketing team for Dance United, but my life is so busy, that I don't really know how helpful I am...but I make an appearance every Thursday.

This weekend is General Conference! I don't believe words can quite describe how excited I am for Saturday and Sunday.

And in a nutshell, I love my busy life. It's busy. Really busy. But being busy keeps me focused...so I shouldn't complain or try to pull the "woe-is-me" card. I asked for everything I've gotten myself into.

Today in Institute, Bro. Jacobs talked a lot about managing our time. It rang so true to my heart thanks to my experiences of late. He pointed out all the hours we have in a day and disected it into categories.

     24 Hours in a Day
     6 hours of sleep
     4 hours of work
     3 hours of school
     2 hours of study
     2 hours of eat and munch time
    .5 hour of scripture study
+   1 hour of institute
     18.5 hours

I am still left with 5.5 hours in my day. At least! What in the world do I do with that time? That's quite a chunk to get something done. Am I doing productive things? Am I doing good things? Better things? Or Best things?
"It takes time to develop the attributes that will help you to be a well balanced person."
- M. Russell Ballard
 Bro. Jacobs also showed this quote:
"One of the ways Satan lessens your effectiveness and weakens your spiritual strength is by convincing you to spend time on things that matter very little."
 - M. Russell Ballard
I hope to develop the ability of managing my time. I can do hard things! I know I can. And right about now -at this very moment in my life- I finally feel like I'm getting it all under control. 

Five minutes until midnight. Good-bye September.

Hello my October.